20100214

Save me from myself, all this time, all these tears,


no more pain, no more sorrow, no more fears!

It will all end, my heart will stop, my eyes will shut.

my breath will expire, my life will cease, i just need another shot!

Finally taking effect, I am numb, I am comfortable,

My life all gone, my voice softened, i am now stable!

20100219 (4)

Yet another day, a day of darkness. Gloom, misery, anger, and hatred are my companions!


When will i conquer them, when will i defeat them, my ghosts, they are the champions!

A battle within, torn apart, with all my sin, who will win?

War torn, and tired, i stumble and i fall.

Face down, in the dirt, i feel so small.

Alone, in this world, i can not fight anymore.

a life of hell, torture, and anguish, what is it for?

20100219 (3)

My mind races, my thoughts are scattered!


fatigued, hungry, and tattered.

I no longer see my way.

alone in the darkness during the day.

All my memories, all my feelings tucked away upon the shelf.

Pull me up, lift me out, someone save me from myself!

In the dark (20100219)

Be my savior, be my healer, be my light in the dark.


Help me up, help me out, save me from the dark.

Guide me now, guide me tomorrow, guide me through the dark.

be my friend, be my brother, be by my side in the dark.

in the dark..... in the dark..... in the dark........

20100219 (2)

I dont want your fuckin pitty,


I dont want your apology.

I dont want your condolences ,

I dont want your fuckin sympathy.

to hell with the politeness,

to hell with the kindness!

it will not bring him back.

it will not change the fact!

20100219

The fuzziness, fog, blurriness, haze.


You were here, then you were gone, a slap in the face.

all my tears, all my cries, all this pain, for all of my days.

my mind is nothing more than a fucked up maze.

Take it away, take it back, say it was just a phase!

I miss you, I need you, where is my place?

To You! 20100319

I walk past you day in and day out, a life i dream about, but can never have.


I see you in my day, and in my dreams, so beautiful, so strong, for you i long.

a life i can never have, a dream i watch evolve from afar.

So young, and so innocent, i wish i could help, i wish i could comfort you!

I see you struggle, i see you in pain, but no comfort from me, and it hurts!

I pray for you too reach out to me, im waiting!

Things are not as they seem, life can change, things can change for the right reason!